I forced myself to leave the house today. More and more I am letting myself become housebound...or in my case, apartment bound.
So yesterday, even though it was chemo day, I made an appointment at a nail salon and promised myself I would keep it.
You see, years ago I used to treat myself better. I don't smoke or drink...i eat...and like to get mani/pedis. Not a crime, right.
Well for a long while, by my mom and other family members, I was left feeling like I was wasting money. On some level too, I felt I was no longer 'worth' the cost. But what the heck..as I said, I have no vices..I don't go to movies, or to clubs..only thing I spend my money on, apart from my living expenses...is food. But don't get me started on that.
So off I went this morning, 8.30am for a 9am appointment. I am always nervous going to new places alone...and this was my first time at this salon...but as soon as I opened the door they welcomed me and the whole time I was there, there was a lot of laughter and pleasant conversation. And not just with the technicians, but with the other clients too. I really did enjoy myself..and I got a pedicure and a manicure to boot. Not bad, eh!
So..that was a fun, non-medically related appointment that I have had in a long time. I intend to go again too.
I need to stop being so hard on myself.
And so it begins.
Dear Big Kid,
1 week ago