Mother's Day

Today is Mother's day. A day to celebrate mom's. This is my first without mom and I am missing her.

I woke up this morning feeling down. Didn't stay up long. Bed seems to be the place for me today. It's rainy and my mood is grey.

Not only do I miss my mom but I miss my son. I know I probably won't hear from him today yet deep inside I am hoping I will.

There is a distance between us that I do not know how to mend. I know I wasn't the greatest mom, so I don't blame him for harbouring the feelings he does. But today they just hurts.